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PostPosted: Fri Dec 03, 2010 5:48 pm 
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and when i say that i don't know how to eat...i mean that i don't know how to eat RIGHT..duh :)


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PostPosted: Fri Dec 03, 2010 8:25 pm 
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today im laying in the sun in my back yard in my bikini and shorts and saying fuck you to the thoughts that i cant be in a bikini now im a healthy weight

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At the moment willingness is admitting to myself in particular when I am struggling, and instead of trying to do it alone and drown in the negative ed thoughts, ask those around me for help

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today, willingness is calling the psychologist my doc recommended and scheduling an appointment. YESTERDAY it was calling the dietician. yikes.


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taking a break after getting full. not a permanent break.. but one where I actually come back to the food and eat it.



it looks like me getting up earlier and making myself an ensure with peanut butter and a banana on days when I know I'll be go go go.

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Willingness...
I'm eating today even after having KFC and a ton of junk food yesterday...
I'm going to have lunch even though breakfast caused a panic attack...
I'm NOT going to go to the gym or weigh myself...
I am going to go shopping and buy clothes for the size i am rather than the size I want to be....
I am going to go out with a friend to town and try not to think about everyone judging me on how 'fat' i am....
I am going to fill out the sheet from my councillor and try to accept my new weight... not easy =(
I am going to try stop freting about being in the healthy weight range... its called healthy for a reason right?
I'm going to keep telling myself I AM NOT OVERWEIGHT... even though I most def feel that way...
and I'm going to smile... even though I feel absolutly horrible =)


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PostPosted: Mon Jan 17, 2011 5:19 pm 
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fly_free_ wrote:
Willingness...
I'm eating today even after having KFC and a ton of junk food yesterday...
I'm going to have lunch even though breakfast caused a panic attack...
I'm NOT going to go to the gym or weigh myself...
I am going to go shopping and buy clothes for the size i am rather than the size I want to be....
I am going to go out with a friend to town and try not to think about everyone judging me on how 'fat' i am....
I am going to fill out the sheet from my councillor and try to accept my new weight... not easy =(
I am going to try stop freting about being in the healthy weight range... its called healthy for a reason right?
I'm going to keep telling myself I AM NOT OVERWEIGHT... even though I most def feel that way...
and I'm going to smile... even though I feel absolutly horrible =)


your post gives me a shine of inspiration and hope :)

Willingness is deciding enough is enough, my eating disorder will not consume me, things have to change and the only person who can do that..is me.

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fly_free_ wrote:
Willingness...
I'm eating today even after having KFC and a ton of junk food yesterday...
I'm going to have lunch even though breakfast caused a panic attack...
I'm NOT going to go to the gym or weigh myself...
I am going to go shopping and buy clothes for the size i am rather than the size I want to be....
I am going to go out with a friend to town and try not to think about everyone judging me on how 'fat' i am....
I am going to fill out the sheet from my councillor and try to accept my new weight... not easy =(
I am going to try stop freting about being in the healthy weight range... its called healthy for a reason right?
I'm going to keep telling myself I AM NOT OVERWEIGHT... even though I most def feel that way...
and I'm going to smile... even though I feel absolutly horrible =)


:clap: AMAZING!!! :smile:

Today, for me willingness meant eating more cereal than I did yesterday for breakfast, and getting on the scales at the Dietician's...


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PostPosted: Tue Jan 18, 2011 1:00 pm 
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hm, willingness today means eating dinner without substituting "scary" foods with something else (ie, not eating potatoes, but eating green peppers instead).

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Willingness
to me at the moment

asking for help, instead of struggling along by myself
listening to my body and eating when I'm hungry even if it seems 'excessive' to me

wearing the cute new awesome coloured top because I like it
and not worrying that because my stomach isn't pancake flat I shouldn't wear it

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PostPosted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 4:33 am 
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Willingness for me at the moment is:

Letting the dietician weigh me, and as she insists backward.

Having a cup of tea in the lunch room with my colleagues.

Eating SOMETHING at school.

Attending all of my medical appointments.

Admitting I am struggling.


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PostPosted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 6:53 am 
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^:obanana: very proud of both of you, El and Nat :)

Today, willingness meant eating intuitively through-out the day and drinking an Up&Go just now before I'm off to bed, purely for the purpose of weight-gain, despite not being hungry AT ALL. Adding night-time supplement drinks on top of day-time intuitive eating is an idea I've been flirting with since before Christmas. Finally, tonight, I DID IT. I need to do it. Willingness will mean doing the same thing tomorrow.


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PostPosted: Wed Dec 05, 2012 10:38 am 
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Start at the first post:

http://www.webiteback.com/forum/posting.php?mode=edit&f=51&p=426347

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